Have you ever had your heart set on something and you just KNEW it was going to happen the way you planned, but with no warning things just disintegrate right before your eyes? What about having great expectations of people in your life, yet you find out that they didn’t have the same excitement or perspective that you did and things just ended up opposite than what you desired? Yes, those scenarios are called “DISAPPOINTMENTS”. My personal definition of disappointment is “Dissed Appointments”…which in essence means rejected and denied appointments or expectations. The dictionary defines it as “the feeling of sadness or displeasure caused by the defeat of one’s hopes or expectations”.
I must be transparent here because I have been secretly walking myself through a season of disappointments. I have been walking around with this weighty feeling in my soul and I could not figure out where it was coming from. I prayed regarding this feeling within me for weeks, but to no avail. I tried searching in God’s Word for something that could just touch it so I could get some form of relief. It wasn’t until last night while I was on the phone with a friend of mine that we began to pray. I told her I was feeling dissatisfied, which is the only word I could think of that described the ache inside. I explained to her that I needed her to pray with me and be in agreement as I ask God once and for all to remove this thing from me because it was messing with me emotionally. As I was praying with her, out of my own mouth I began to pray out prophetically what the issue was. Yes, God revealed to me that I have had strings of disappointments that I just brushed off, but never confronted. It left me feeling dissatisfied and just short of what I felt would make me happy.
One of the recent things that just happened was I just moved into a new place and I waited an extra month and a half for a particular floor plan that I desired. I put down my deposit and I waited patiently until the unit was available for me to move into. The day finally came and I went to pick up my keys and to do the walk through. When I drove up to the unit, I clicked open the garage and I immediately saw that something was wrong. It didn’t have direct access from the garage into the unit like it was supposed to. As I walked around and towards the front door, my heart sunk and as I put the key into the door and walked in, I realized that I wasn’t moving into what I waited a month and a half for. I contacted the front office and they regretfully told me that this was the last unit available. To make a long story short, I had to accept what I was getting. I was disappointed, but instead of confronting it in prayer, I brushed it away and said, “oh well, it’s mine and I will just make it the best way possible”. What I didn’t know was that I was stacking that disappointment next hundreds of others that I hidden away.
After prayer last night, I began to speak the Word of God over myself and I must tell you that immediately I felt the heaviness lift. I realized that I needed to identify what the issue was and then create the atmosphere of prayer and worship so God could go in and heal me. What the Lord shared with me is that my eyes have been on what I WANT and not on Him. Jesus should ALWAYS be our focal point. The moment we look to and put our focus on things and people, we are setting ourselves up for huge let downs. When my eyes are on the Lord, I trust His leading even in the situations that may not be what I desire. In Job 23:10 it says, “He knows the way that I take…”
How do you live The Beautiful L.Y.F.E? Make sure that your eyes are on the only Consistent One in life…Jesus! He doesn’t change, He doesn’t disappoint and He won’t fail you. Even if you don’t end up with what you thought you should, there is a peace within that says, “Jesus knows what is best for me and I will trust Him to lead me in the way I should go”. This is NOT easy to do, but the resolve I have made regarding my new residence is that I am on assignment and I’m next to the neighbors that I will be ministering to in some way. So if things do not go the way you expect, resolve within your heart that God knows what is best and He has you on the path for your life that will lead you to places beyond your wildest dreams and visions. He’s a loving Daddy and is making sure that you are tremendously blessed in the way He created you to be.
Until next time…