“Dissed” Appointments

Have you ever had your heart set on something and you just KNEW it was going to happen the way you planned, but with no warning things just disintegrate right before your eyes?  What about having great expectations of people in your life, yet you find out that they didn’t have the same excitement or perspective that you did and things just ended up opposite than what you desired?  Yes, those scenarios are called “DISAPPOINTMENTS”.  My personal definition of disappointment is “Dissed Appointments”…which in essence means rejected and denied appointments or expectations.  The dictionary defines it as “the feeling of sadness or displeasure caused by the defeat of one’s hopes or expectations”.

I must be transparent here because I have been secretly walking myself through a season of disappointments.  I have been walking around with this weighty feeling in my soul and I could not figure out where it was coming from.  I prayed regarding this feeling within me for weeks, but to no avail.  I tried searching in God’s Word for something that could just touch it so I could get some form of relief.  It wasn’t until last night while I was on the phone with a friend of mine that we began to pray.  I told her I was feeling dissatisfied, which is the only word I could think of that described the ache inside.  I explained to her that I needed her to pray with me and be in agreement as I ask God once and for all to remove this thing from me because it was messing with me emotionally.  As I was praying with her, out of my own mouth I began to pray out prophetically what the issue was.  Yes, God revealed to me that I have had strings of disappointments that I just brushed off, but never confronted.  It left me feeling dissatisfied and just short of what I felt would make me happy.

One of the recent things that just happened was I just moved into a new place and I waited an extra month and a half for a particular floor plan that I desired.  I put down my deposit and I waited patiently until the unit was available for me to move into.  The day finally came and I went to pick up my keys and to do the walk through.  When I drove up to the unit, I clicked open the garage and I immediately saw that something was wrong.  It didn’t have direct access from the garage into the unit like it was supposed to.  As I walked around and towards the front door, my heart sunk and as I put the key into the door and walked in, I realized that I wasn’t moving into what I waited a month and a half for.  I contacted the front office and they regretfully told me that this was the last unit available.  To make a long story short, I had to accept what I was getting.  I was disappointed, but instead of confronting it in prayer, I brushed it away and said, “oh well, it’s mine and I will just make it the best way possible”.  What I didn’t know was that I was stacking that disappointment next hundreds of others that I hidden away.

After prayer last night, I began to speak the Word of God over myself and I must tell you that immediately I felt the heaviness lift.  I realized that I needed to identify what the issue was and then create the atmosphere of prayer and worship so God could go in and heal me.  What the Lord shared with me is that my eyes have been on what I WANT and not on Him.  Jesus should ALWAYS be our focal point.  The moment we look to and put our focus on things and people, we are setting ourselves up for huge let downs.  When my eyes are on the Lord, I trust His leading even in the situations that may not be what I desire. In Job 23:10 it says, “He knows the way that I take…”  

How do you live The Beautiful L.Y.F.E?  Make sure that your eyes are on the only Consistent One in life…Jesus!  He doesn’t change, He doesn’t disappoint and He won’t fail you.  Even if you don’t end up with what you thought you should, there is a peace within that says, “Jesus knows what is best for me and I will trust Him to lead me in the way I should go”.  This is NOT easy to do, but the resolve I have made regarding my new residence is that I am on assignment and I’m next to the neighbors that I will be ministering to in some way.  So if things do not go the way you expect, resolve within  your heart that God knows what is best and He has you on the path for your life that will lead you to places beyond your wildest dreams and visions.  He’s a loving Daddy and is making sure that you are tremendously blessed in the way He created you to be.

Until next time…

Jesus, My Bridegroom

One of the greatest revelations that I have received is that Jesus is my Bridegroom!!  I used to have dreams of me getting married to a “faceless” person and I felt so much joy in the dream, a joy that was foreign to me.  Prior to me becoming more learned in the interpretation of my dreams, I used to think that God was showing me that I was getting married naturally.  I mean yes, I will be married one day, but these dreams were more about me becoming married and covenanted to Him first.  God was trying to get me to understand that He is my Bridegroom and He wants me to connect with Him first before I connect with ANY natural man.

The worst thing ever is to have someone in your life that loves you so much and not love them back.  Many of us have been in situations where we did not receive back the love we gave out.  Jesus feels the same way, yet He continues to remain with us no matter what.  The thing we need to do is tend to Him by engaging His presence before we even think about tending to a natural man.  When he taps your heart and wants you to spend time with Him, are you ignoring Him and making up excuses why you don’t have time? Are you desensitized from His promptings because you are engaged in the latest “ratchet” TV show? When He whispers in your ear and says that he wants to tell you a secret, do you roll over and press “snooze” and tell Him you will listen later?  Hmmm…

We are in the presence of THE Bridegroom each moment of the day, but how often do we acknowledge Him? He loves to sing over us (Zephaniah 3), but we won’t let Him because we are too busy doing this and doing that.  We say we want a mate that can give us the world and spoil us, yet we have THE MAN who has already given us the world and the fullness thereof (Psalm 24:1), but we don’t realize it.

Before we can experience love in its natural sense, we must experience the Person of Love…JESUS!  He’s prepared this Beautiful L.Y.F.E. for us, yet we keep chasing other lovers. We don’t know how to keep our focus on Him long enough,  so how will we do that for a natural man?  Did you know that when you allow Jesus to be the Bridegroom in your life, it will raise the level of man that interests you?   You won’t be able to help but choose a higher quality person for your life after experiencing a higher level of love.

It’s time to practice being married with the One and only Bridegroom!  It’s time to pay attention to Him when He speaks; It’s time to spend quality time reading the love letters (The Bible) He’s written for us.  He wants to fill us with Joy and give us the pleasures of Heaven and earth, but we need to connect with Him.  We must open our hearts and begin to allow Him to fill us with His love so we can give it back to Him.

There is no other man that is like Him. He’s in love with you…He’s a man that will never leave, reject or abandon you.  He promised to be with you until the earth ends and then into eternity.  It’s time to recognize that we already have a relationship that we need to steward better.  He will fill you up to the point that when the natural relationship shows up, you can give him the overflow because your cup of love will run over.

How do you live a Beautiful L.Y.F.E.? Recommit to your Bridegroom today and let Him show you what TRUE love really is. Let Him blow your mind…

Until next time…

I Am An Heir of Christ

Yesterday was one of those days where I was trying to figure out how certain dreams and visions I have would be financed.  I was driving around trying to figure out how in the world this could happen.  Then a few minutes later, I heard the statement that changed my life…literally! Holy Spirit said, “You are an heir and your money never runs out!” Immediately the burden that was beginning to weigh on me began to lift and in THAT moment I saw myself differently.  I said it over and over again to myself…I AM AN HEIR.

When I thought about what an heir was, interestingly enough the first person that came to my mind was the socialite and heiress Paris Hilton.  I know that she is working on some things now that has generated some wealth for her, but before that, all Miss Paris had was her name…”Hilton”.  She lived a privileged life because of the name that she was born into. She was free to go and do whatever she wanted because of her name.  Then I began thinking about the Name that I have been born into…Jesus!  I am IN CHRIST and the Bible says in 1 John 4:17, “…as He is, so are we in this world”.  Romans 8:17 says that because we are children of God, then we are also heirs of God and joint-heirs with Christ.  We have a right to live in this world and to obtain the life that Jesus lived and still has.

So what does that mean exactly?  This means that we no longer need to walk around as paupers with our heads hung down wondering where our supply is coming from.  An heir walks differently…an heir acts differently…an heir does things because they know that their supply is already taken care of.  We have a perpetual supply of WHATEVER we need.  This is not just about money or material things because Jesus was also filled with joy, peace, love, power and strength.  He has authority and honor. He is majestic and royalty…and so are we.  AS HE IS, so are we IN THIS WORLD!! Are you walking around feeling displaced?  Are you feeling unimportant?  Are you feeling inadequate?  If so, why?  You are an heir of everything that Jesus was and still is.

I love the story of the Prodigal Son in Luke 15.  We oftentimes hear as it relates to love and mercy to those who go astray.  As I read the story this morning again, I saw where the younger son asked for his inheritance and once he received it, he left.  The Bible says that he “wasted his possessions with reckless living” and eventually lost everything.  When he came to his right mind, he decided to go back home.  This is where the story gets exciting for me because before he left, he received HIS PORTION of his inheritance, but when he returned from living a wasteful life, he was able to continue living a rich life because his father had MORE to share.  Yes, when you are an heir, your supply never runs out.  We know that in the natural, one bad decision can cause even the most wealthy family go bankrupt, but when you are an heir of the King of kings and the Lord of lords, your supply never runs out because it is stored in heaven where the moths and rust cannot destroy (Matthew 6:20)

How do you live a Beautiful L.Y.F.E? Embrace the fact that you are an heir and that you have an inheritance that is awaiting you while you are here on this earth.  When you come down to what seems to be your last, it really isn’t your last because your supply is perpetual…God has more!  When you are feeling down about who you are as a person, look up into the reflection of Christ and see yourself as whole, important and beautiful.  This is the abundant life that Jesus came to give His children. He is the Lifter of our heads (Psalm 3).  The earth is the Lords and everything in it, the world and all who live in it (Psalm 24:1 NIV).  He owns this thing called earth.  Today is Earth Day…take ownership of your inheritance and become the Heir…or Heiress that you are.  Live your Life BEAUTIFULLY!!!!

Until next time…

I’ve Fallen and I Can’t Get Up??

Today’s blog comes from a place of vulnerability and transparency.  What do you do when you have fallen from the place of momentum and you feel like you cannot get up?  I had to ask myself that question this morning because I lost my way on this Beautiful L.Y.F.E. path that God showed me.  I became frustrated with some things in my life and I wanted to just do my own thing because if you have ever been frustrated because of other people’s decisions that affect your life, then it makes you want to throw in the towel.  What do you do when everything around you begins to stop going the way it was going?  What do you do when you count on people to do what they say they are going to do and they don’t do it?  How do you stay focused when the things that they dropped now are back on your plate to do and your plate is overflowing already?

This morning Jesus spoke to me and said “I am still your Shepherd and I  lead you in the way that you should go”.  As simple as that is, it was so powerful to me.  What He was telling me is that He hasn’t changed.  People and situations may have changed, but yet He is still my Shepherd and has never let go of my hand.  I didn’t know he had my hand because I was so focused on what wasn’t happening around me.  He waited for me until I was able to get my mind back in focus to head down the path that He created for me.  The experiences of fear, doubt and frustration stagnated me for a moment, yet he stayed by my side until I was ready to move again.  He knew I was afraid of being a failure at writing these blogs, leading teams at my church, maintaining my education and getting my business off the ground…not to mention a full time job.  It all became so much for me, but yet his loving voice reassured me from time to time that everything will be okay.  His patience has been ministry to my soul.  Even though I became stagnated on the path He designed for me, he never yelled, screamed or became angry with me because after all I am a sheep. Sheep can easily frustrate anyone that is trying to get them to follow them because we are prone to wander off and lose focus.  I’m designed to follow, but when I lose my way and follow the thoughts of my doubts and unbelief’s, He’s right there gently prodding me back on track.

To live on the path of the Beautiful L.Y.F.E. is not a perfect one.  You will find yourself, like me, waning outside the path in frustration and doubt yet not losing ground.  Jesus never leaves us nor forsakes us.  He’s there perfecting those things that concern us (Psalm 138:8).  When we finally turn our eyes back to the Author and the Finisher of our faith, then He continues to lead us down the paths of righteousness for HIS name sake.

Today, if you find yourself sitting by the wayside and you have lost your focus…ask Jesus your Shepherd to help you see that He’s there.  Ask Him to refocus your mind and take you back to the place in your heart where you were dependent on His voice every step of the way.  He will do that just for you…His beloved.  He will cause your heart to burn more for Him than those things that distracted you in the first place.  He will love you back on the path of your Beautiful L.Y.F.E…Onward, Forward, MARCH!!

Until next time…

Jesus Is The L.Y.F.E.

The acronym  L.Y.F.E. describes the pathway of beauty that God has designed for His people.  We read about having an abundant life, but wondered where it is and how do we get to it. The most life changing moment I had is when Jesus spoke to my heart and told me that this beautiful L.Y.F.E. is right in front of me.  I began looking around and I couldn’t see what He was showing me. Then one day it became clear.  He wanted me to look to Him because HE IS the beautiful L.Y.F.E.  We have been looking for the tangible…and although it is available to us in the natural…we first need to embrace it in the One that is the Source of it.  To explain what I mean, let’s break down what L.Y.F.E. means.

L – Living…this word means active, thriving, vigorous and strong. Our lives were meant to be active or engaging, which means we are actively in pursuit of whatever God puts in our paths.  We are thriving which means we are flourishing and growing. We are vigorous, which means we are healthy and full of energy and we are strong…able to withstand the pressures of life.  Acts 17:28 says that we LIVE and move and exist in Him because we are His offspring.  In order to Live, we must connect to Jesus.  It’s not just about being in Christ, because when we gave our hearts to Him, we became joint heirs with Him.  It’s about connecting to Him…having a relationship with Him…allowing ourselves to plug into Life Himself.

Y – Your…this word demonstrates exclusivity!  A path for your life was designed just for you.  God customized a path for your life that only you can travel on. Second Peter 1:3 states that God has given us everything we need for living a godly life in Him.  This path that belongs to you was designed to be beautiful.  It was organized and arranged with every good and perfect gift, opportunity and experience that God predestined for you.  This path is narrow and straight.  Matthew 7:14 says that narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it.  Your path can be found, but it can only be found through Jesus.  It’s difficult to find because we tend to search for what we want on our own.  Jesus made it where He is the ONLY way to this Beautiful L.Y.F.E. and in to stay on the path requires focus and never taking our eyes off of Him.

F – Future…Jeremiah 29:11 says “For I know the thoughts that I think towards you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a FUTURE and a hope.  Future means “a time to come hereafter”.  It is so amazing to serve Jesus, who is our Shepherd because He knows ahead of time what is coming up in our lives.  He will never lead us down a path into our future that will harm us.  We may have some difficult times, but it never comes to harm us because he said in Jeremiah that he has thoughts of peace and not evil.  We don’t have to fear evil because when we follow Jesus the Shepherd and pattern our lives after Him, He will lead us into a good and peaceful future.

E – Extraordinarily…God has this exquisite  plan for our lives.  It is a perfect plan within His perfect will.  It is a path and a plan that is so grand that it allows His name to be glorified. To see it is to recognize His eminence and sovereignty.  He has set up this plan in a way that no matter who sees His works, they can’t miss that He exists.  This is called extraordinary.  It is beyond what is normal.  No one can explain it…it’s beyond what the natural mind can conceive.   Ephesians 3:20 says that “God is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think…” God desires to bless us in ways that baffle the mind.  It is the Extraordinary life…it’s the supernatural life…This is what God wants for ALL of His children that follow Him.

My desire is to see the Body of Christ shine as it was designed to shine.  We are to be looked upon by the world as something to hope for.  Instead, we have looked to the world and longed for what they have. God has given me His Heart and desire to help lead all of us to our paths so we can live L.Y.F.E. beautifully and so the Church…God’s Church, can shine.

Until next time…



Jesus Says, “Fear Not”

Let’s face it, fear is real and it exists in everyone of our lives.  The difference is, some  cave into its threats and others  use it to motivate them to get to the next place in their lives.  I used to be that person that would cave into it and allow it to paralyze me and it caused my life to stand still.  Being in ministry and having Pastors that pull on the gifts in me has taught me to push past the feeling of standing there with my knees knocking and not moving.  I have come to understand that fear is a liar.  It paints this ugly picture that your life will fall apart if you do what is required of you.  The times that I have pushed past its taunts and torments, I realized that the whole situation was not as bad as it looked.  When I created this blog I was honestly scared out of my mind.  God had been ministering to me for months  and I was loving every bit of it, but when he told me that it was time to share it, that’s when the voices came.  This same message that blessed me so much became something that I felt no one would even pay attention to.  I was afraid of it not having enough impact on those that read it.

I used to read the story of the Israelite’s while they were in the desert on their way to the promised land.  I read their complaints and their “woe is me’s” while on their journey and I used to think how crazy they were.  They were so close to their destination, but they traveled around the same mountain for FORTY YEARS!!! That sounds crazy right?  Well does it still sound crazy if I tell you that they walked around that mountain because they were filled with fear?  Yes, those people were fearful because they were traveling down an unknown path that they could not figure out.  They didn’t trust what God had promised them and they were not grateful for the things He had already shown them on their journey…sound familiar?

In Exodus 23, God told them that He put an angel in place to lead them along the way to get them to the place that He prepared for them.  The only thing they needed to do was obey.  Today, right now in our lives, Jesus is our Shepherd…He’s the one leading us on the path of righteousness for HIS NAME sake (Psalm 23). Yet still we find ourselves holding on to whatever we can find on the side of the road so we don’t have to face the unknown.  I will say to you the same thing that God said to me, “Jesus already walked out the path that I have created for you. It’s already done so FEAR NOT”.

How do you live a Beautiful L.Y.F.E.?  You have to be willing to trust Jesus and lean on Him.  He’s been down YOUR road already so He already knows what is ahead…even when you don’t.  Psalm 23 says “Even though I walk through the valley and the SHADOW of death, I will fear no evil because You are with me”.  Fear puts the emphasis on the shadows in our lives.  It magnifies and makes it look like it will overtake us, but shadows are not real.  The true emphasis needs to be on Jesus because it is the path that HE created for HIS NAME SAKE.  He wants to get the glory so He won’t lead you wrong.

Living a life where your future can be extraordinary calls for a stand and a walk of faith.  Let us all stop allowing the devil to be glorified in our lives by letting him keep us on the side of the road.  Our lives are supposed to be brighter than any one in this world.  Our lives are supposed to make God more famous than He is to this world.  Today make a decision to walk past the taunts of fear and lets live the Beautiful L.Y.F.E. that God created for us.

Until Next Time…

Jesus, My Shepherd Feeds Me

I don’t know about you, but being raised in the church, I always heard the preachers say that Jesus is our Shepherd and we are His sheep.  That went in one ear and out the other.  Yes, I could picture a field of sheep and a shepherd watching over them, but I couldn’t understand how that relates to me.  Just recently, as I received revelation about living a Beautiful L.Y.F.E., I became more aware of how powerful is to to truly see Jesus as my Shepherd.

In Psalm 23:1 it says, “The Lord is my Shepherd I shall not want (or lack)”.  Okay, He’s my Shepherd, but why am I still lacking?  Why are there still areas in my life where I need supply?  Well, something spectacular happened to me when I asked Jesus those questions.  One of the things He told me is that I needed to RECEIVE Him as my Shepherd.  What does it mean to receive?  It is like someone calling you up and telling you they have a gift for you.  You don’t know what it is or if you will like it until  you receive it and unwrap it.  Once you unwrap the gift and know exactly what it is and what it can do for you, then you began to utilize it in your life.  The only way I can receive Jesus as my Shepherd is to unwrap His qualities as a Shepherd and then embrace Him as that.

I began looking up the duties of a shepherd. Their main role in the life of a sheep is to feed, guide and protect them. To feed means to supply with nourishment…to provide for…and to satisfy. This is not just about the natural. What we need mostly is to be nourished, provided for and satisfied internally…and THAT’S what Jesus does.  He goes into those areas within our souls that are malnourished and damaged.  Those areas in our lives that we tucked away and hid so no one could see.  Our lives are not as beautiful as we desire because we are starving internally and Jesus wants us to know today that He is here to feed us.  He wants to satisfy our souls.  When we are satisfied within, we will be satisfied outwardly.

From this day forward, recognize and embrace that Jesus your Shepherd is in the midst of you to feed you in those areas where you are lacking within.  You won’t experience it until you are intentional about who He is to YOU.  He is YOUR Shepherd…which means He is personal and you have Him all to yourself.  Tell Him about the emptiness you feel within that no one can see.  Tell Him about the pain that overtakes your heart when you think about how certain people have treated you.  Tell Him how hungry you really are and He will satisfy, nourish and provide everything you need.  The Beautiful L.Y.F.E. is awaiting you.  Don’t sit there and starve, let Jesus your Shepherd feed you.

Until Next time…



The Beautiful L.Y.F.E.

What does a Beautiful L.Y.F.E. look like? Why is it that I feel so passionate about making sure people…God’s people…walk out their lives Beautifully? I have been serving the Lord for about 25 years.  I have heard the messages that say if you do this and do that, then you will be blessed.  Well, I did “that” and I did more of “that”, yet there was still something missing.  I’ve sown money like nobody’s business, yet the balance of what I’ve sown and what I’ve seen manifest in my life is not balancing.  This caused me to sit before the Lord and lay my life down before Him and ask what is it that I am missing.

I truly believe there are so many Christians who are unhappy with their lives. This unhappiness is causing them to seek material things, getting involved in premature relationships with a man/woman, or trying to find satisfaction in money. God’s people have turned to fancy cars, big homes and big money deals, yet it still isn’t enough. I’m not against any of these things because I know that the Lord LOVES to bless His people, but what I’m speaking about is looking for satisfaction in them.

Jesus says in John 10:10 that He came to give us LIFE and give us LIFE in an abundant way.  He came so we can enjoy life and enjoy it to the fullness…a perpetual overflow.  In verse 9 it says that Jesus is The Door and anyone that enters must enter through Him.  So what this means is that in order to have the Beautiful L.Y.F.E. that was designed for us, we must enter in through Jesus.  It is impossible to have Jesus in our lives and not experience abundance so why have we not experienced it? John 10:3 says that His sheep listen to His voice and heed it (give careful attention to).  We need a relationship with Jesus.  Many Christians say they have a relationship with Jesus, but the type of relationship I’m speaking about is one where you engage Him and are intentional about relating to Him throughout your day. It’s not about calling on Him only when you need Him, but it’s taking Him by the hand and allowing Him to escort you through your day.

L.Y.F.E. means Living Your Future Extraordinarily.  The only way to live your life EXTRA ordinarily is to take the hand of an EXTRA ordinary God and allow Him to take you on His EXTRA ordinary journey.  Yes…the life filled with disappointments, unhappiness, depression and poverty was never meant to be YOUR path…YOUR journey.  Jesus came to give you LIFE…an abundant LIFE…so if you haven’t seen this type of life since coming to Jesus, I encourage you to take this journey with me each week.  Re-commit your path to Jesus your Shepherd and allow Him to lead you on the path of righteousness for HIS name sake.

Until next time…


Turn On The Light!

I recently sat down with a Christian Counselor and she said something that liberated me.  She said that there was a dark cloud over areas in my heart that needed to be moved so that the light can shine through me.  I didn’t get it at first, but then I ran across this scripture: Read more

Beyond the Mirror

Do not let your adornment be merely outward—arranging the hair, wearing gold, or putting on fine apparel—  rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God.  (1 Peter 3:3-4)

I love defining words.  We tend to take words and water them down to the point of losing the true meaning and definition of the word.  Read more